Each day is a new day and a new chance to better myself. Sometimes I can find myself stuck in my own head re-living a time or event in my past that has hurt me. I am not sure why my mind does this to itself but it happens all the time. I can sit and live the pain over and over again and if I am not careful it can really take off and disrupt my day.
This is not how I strive to spend my days or live my life. I think, for me, it's my subconscious trying to come to terms with the pain I have experienced and some part of that pain is still unresolved. So I go over it and over it without even really thinking about it trying to fix it or resolve it.
This does not mean I have given it all over to God, it only means I am able to accept it, understand and recognize it. I am a work in progress. I am like the construction on a freeway, it never seems to end. But I know that if I just take it day by day.... moment by moment... and I keep reminding myself.. Give it to God.... one day I will be free of it and I will live the life I was meant to live.
I only have one life. I do not want to live it angry, biter, upset, sad or as a victim. I want to live it like it was meant to be lived... full. Full of joy, full of love and full of great memories.
Thank you God for the ability to forgive and for taking my problems that are just too big for me.