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Where thoughts can be funny, can race at all hours of the day and night and can sometimes not make any sense!

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Sunday, December 28, 2014

I am.....




If you have been following my blog you know these cards are called the I Am...... Cards.  The idea is to pull a card each day to read a positive affirmation to fill your mind with.  By focusing on positive thoughts, you can change how you feel and the way you think.  It's a simple way to experience life in a new and exciting way, and to explore your mind with the thought behind the "I am".... card of the day.

I am....flexible.
  
When I pulled this card I laughed out loud at the message. I was JUST told last night by someone I am just getting to know that one of their observations of me was that I was able to adapt to most circumstances, which of course for me goes hand in hand that I am flexible.

"Your comfort zone is not a place that you want to remain in. 
Dare, discover, be all that you can be." ~ Catherine Pulsifer

Yes, there are MANY areas in my life where I am flexible.   I think when change comes down the pipeline I am quick to express my likes or dislikes about the change and then I am also quick to get the new change into my head and adapt in any way I need to so that I can continue to succeed in my life. 

Of course for the most part if I had the choice I would really not want a lot of change in my life.  Like most people I get myself into my comfort zone and I want to stay there and enjoy the security of feeling safe.  For me, and for most others, my comfort zone relates to my anxiety level.  The lower my anxiety the greater the comfort zone is for me and human nature keeps me there. No one wants to feel anxious, high levels of stress or have feelings of insecurity.  But in life, as we all know, change is always inevitable..... Good or bad. 

There is a type of anxiety that is good for us all, it's called Optimal Anxiety.  This is a higher level of anxiety that pushes us to perform better and do more. Anyone who has ever set a goal and pushed themselves knows this level of anxiety is what gets us to a new accomplishment level.  But it's a known fact that too much anxiety and our bodies shut down and we do less than what is typically normal for us. 

Being flexible in simple situations in my life has allowed me to be more flexible and adaptable when changes I do not foresee coming happen. Continually allowing myself to step out of my comfort zone in small ways reminds me that if I can be flexible with these little changes then I can really focus on the big changes and allow myself to brainstorm and problem solve the bigger issues.  

For me getting out of my comfort level is a learned skill.  I tend to be an A to Z girl. I will go from one end of the scale all the way to the other end without a blink of an eye.  This is what needs to be done; this is how I am going to get there and then BOOM.. I am there.  What I tend to forget is all the area in the middle.  There is so much to learn from the middle, there is so much to experience and so many people and other opportunities there too.

As I think about my life and my routines I think of new ways that I can change those routines up to have more life experience thus forcing me out of this comfort zone I am currently in.  It's the little changes that we can make that will really change us.  Here are some of the changes I am going to try and focus on to get out of my current comfort zone:

I am going to try and do everyday things differently.  My daily routine is pretty much the same each weekday.  But what if I changed the hours I worked, or the hours I went to the gym.  What if instead of working at the same gym each day of the week I went to other locations and experienced the workouts there and the people?  What new doors could that open up for me?

I tend to go to the same places for food or drink that are in my comfort zone.  The staff and other patrons know me there.  I know the menu and the choices and I know that satisfied feeling I have going to those locations.  But what if once or twice a month I went somewhere new?  What new foods could I try, what new people and cultures could I experience? 

I am going to slow down when making choices in my life.  As stated before I tend to be A to Z.. I really want to see what's in the middle and see what it has to offer.  Typically I know when I do not like something; I will move past it and never look back.  But what if I gave it two or three more chances to really experience it and perhaps learn something new about myself.  I do not want to be so quick to just make my decision and move on.  I really want to learn to slow down in the moment.  

I am going to stop fearing fear.  Fear protects me but it also hinders me and prevents me from living the life I am meant to live.  It can be overwhelming at times and it can also be so faint I do not really grasp that fear is keeping me in a place I no longer want to be at.  As I begin to understand the fear in my life and address it, rather than pretend I am strong and it's not there, I know the more I will be able to break free from it.

These are only a few ideas that I have to allow myself out of my comfort zone and be even more flexible.  But once we get into our minds that it's possible we can really begin to make big positive changes.  

I always want to be flexible.  I always want people to know I am flexible and as long as I am not taken advantage of they can count on this from me.  Being flexible is a good thing and a quality I want to continually improve on.  

What areas are you flexible on and what areas do you need to work on?  Can you make a list of changes you want to make and take the steps necessary to make them?   Of course you can!  

Make today the FIRST day you allow yourself out of your comfort zone and be just a little more flexible and then continue to build on that daily in any way you can.

We all have the ability to live the life we were meant to live, let’s start doing it sooner than later!

~Mellie 


 



 

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

I am......



If you have been following my blog you know these cards are called the I Am...... Cards.  The idea is to pull a card each day to read a positive affirmation to fill your mind with.  By focusing on positive thoughts, you can change how you feel and the way you think.  It's a simple way to experience life in a new and exciting way, and to explore your mind with the thought behind the "I am".... card of the day.


I am....capable.


As I drew this card out of the bag at lunch time I caught myself holding my breath.  Was it going to be a card that I would not be able to admit to?  Would it be a card that I would not relate to?  Would it be a card that would make me feel insecure about myself? (The complete opposite of the purpose of the cards, but a reality none the less) Or would it be a card that would allow me to celebrate myself?

The answer?  It's a card that I can relate with and makes me feel insecure about myself.

One of the things I love the most about myself is the ability to provoke the potential out of people.  I know most people that I know are not demonstrating all they are truly capable of and it's a gift for me to be able to look at them and coax them to their potential.  That could be in their relationships, their work, their weight loss or parenting.  Each situation depends on the person and what I observe in their lives. Most people daydream about a better lifestyle. They have in their minds what they think their life should look like and can almost see themselves doing it, but can not seem to get there. I try and look at them and find out what it is holding them back.  I try and determine what is stopping them from being all they can be?  I then will try and guide them just enough to show what actions they need to get there.  This makes me capable to motivate and provoke potential. 

What I struggle with is being capable in my own life.

The obstacles I allow to detour my own dreams as well as not being able to see the actions I need to take to allowing me to achieve my goals.  This is one of the most frustrating characteristics about myself.

I am a successful person in many ways. I do very well with my job and can manage myself and my goals surrounding it.  I raise good, solid children who are not lazy or entitled.  I am able to manage my household and ensure that all the key players are in place and all the requirements are getting done.  If faced with a challenge I can rise to it and overcome most of the times.  I was successful in changing my lifestyle and eating habits thus changing not only my body but my life.   Yet, when it comes to my daydreams and what I yearn for I only see the steps in front of me and find I am paralyzed to actually climb those stairs.  

Why is that? 

Why am I, or anyone else, able to be so driven and successful in so many areas yet not able to be capable of achieving even higher accomplishments and making our daydreams a reality?

There is a huge gap between what we want and what we do about it. 

For me I it comes down to a few questions:

How bad do I want it?
Is it enough just to know that it's possible, if only I were willing to push a little harder?
Am I content to know it is there and pretend that "one day" I will do something about it?
Or is it that I am too fearful because of the risk of embarrassment or disappointing others?

I live daily in a life where I know there are even bigger and better things waiting for me.  I understand that the decisions I make on a daily bases will either put me closer to those dreams or leave me in the same place I have been each morning when I wake up.  Each little decision I make will either support the change or it will support my fear of the steps.  Usually I remain in the same place until something dramatic happens in my life or around me that forces me to realize... "I want more than this!"  "I want more from myself!" 

Sometimes little moments in life such as the lyrics to a song, a quote, a story of someone who triumphed, can motivate me.  Or it could be that someones life has ended and I am left knowing they were not done living yet and not wanting this fate for myself.   When I find myself in this place, this is the time that I resolve to make changes and do something remarkable.

It's these moments when I have to really reflect and ask myself tough questions.  "Am I being the best me I can possibly be?"  And the answer is usually no, because I know there is so much more that I am capable of in this life.  I have to learn to take new steps, go in new directions and remove myself from the comfort of fear and allow myself to fail or succeed.  I can not continue my life wondering or daydreaming about other things I should be doing.  I can not continue in my life waiting for someone to come along and push me or discover me and hand me the keys to my dream.  I can not continue to allow the influences of others hold me back from what I want and know I can do.  I have to take new steps to move myself out of my current complacency and step into my potential.

I am tired of accepting less from myself than I know I am capable of.  My potential is a gift to the world, maybe not all of the world but a large part of it, and it's up to me and only me to get out there and share it....... every single day.

Just like working out became who I am and part of my lifestyle, my dreams need to as well and it's up to me each and every day to take it one step further to get to where I am going and want to be.

I am....capable.

Of many great things, and I am capable of overcoming many great things.  I owe it to myself to make it happen and so do you!


Go out and be remarkable today!


~Mellie



Friday, December 12, 2014

The Elf On The Shelf......

 Here are two days of Elf On The Shelf...

The one with his head in the bag was a lazy quick day.  The kids were gone to their dad's house that night so I just did this one real quick so when they got home from school Toto, our Elf, would be there for them to see.  They thought it was funny and talked about how he likes candy. 







This one was last night.  Of course the movie Frozen was the thought behind this one.  I just shoved him into the rolls or TP and then drew the face of the snowman and details on his body.  That is a really baby carrot as a nose.  I used my scissors to dig a hole in the roll and then just pushed the carrot in there.  The snowman's scarf are two colored pipe strings wrapped around.  And the gloves are being held up by two suckers on each side of the rolls.  Very easy, yet very fun!


Trying to write on the mirror so my kids would not reorganize my handwriting was the most difficult part, it looks like I have the handwriting of a serial killer. 

Have a great day!

~Mellie




Things I have learned while on this earth......




ALWAYS trust your gut. Tell people you love them. Life is short. Forgive but don't forget. Learn to love yourself. Accept things. Always do what you want, not what others tell you to do. Love your babies, they grow and move out and move on. Be social. Meet new people. Travel. Scream to the top of your lungs at least once a month. Regret is a mother sucker and no matter how much you try and put it out of your mind it's always looming. Work hard, always, at everything. The truth will set you free. Time heals, but not everything. Jealousy is a disease, wish those sick to get better soon. The grass is greener where you water it. Maybe I don't need that many shoes. Be loyal always. Only allow true people in your inner circle. Trust is only earned and should not be given away. Love your body, it's the only thing carrying you around. Love yourself no matter what others pretend to know about you. Teach others to respect you at all times, no passes. Learn to be alone. Laugh as much as you can. Love and pursue God.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

When the truth, isn't the truth.....

This is a weird blog for me.  I have had the thoughts of someone weighing on my heart for the past few weeks and can not shake it.  This person is dealing with a situation that has her being lied to over numerous circumstances.  She has spoken to me several times about it and as much as I try and be there for her it appears to me that I am not able to help her solve this issue at this time and that bothers me.

Being lied to is very painful.  There are several types of lies in my world.  There are the white lies that possibly assist you in getting out of doing something or going somewhere.  Then there are the lies that will hurt you or others in your life.  Compulsive lying is the worst.  That's when the person speaking the lies either doesn't know how to speak the truth or just doesn't care enough about anyone else to make is necessary.  This type of liar is only looking out for themselves.

It's my opinion that the basic reasons why people lie are:
  1. To get out of trouble.
  2. To gain something.
  3. Because they fear something.
  4. To be thought of better.
  5. To hurt someone.
I am not perfect.  I have lied before to try and avoid conflict or to try and protect someone.  It never works out to my benefit and it always bites me in the ass afterwards.  This is a lesson I am continuing to learn.  But no matter what the reasons for my past lies are one thing always stands true, I hate myself afterwards.  No matter how good my intentions were and no matter how much I was trying to protect someone I always have felt awful about not speaking the truth.  I have allowed what I use to hold dear to me, my word, to be tarnished.  This does not mean that I go around lying all the time, what it means is that the times I have lied I hold close to my heart and regret with all my heart. It is my goal to recover from these one day. Which is allowing myself to forgive me.

However, I never lie to hurt someone...EVER!

I have tried to explain to my friend that the person in her life is not trying to hurt her, it's not personal, it's a character flaw of the other party and that the sooner she realizes this the sooner she will be able to make her stand and decision on which way she wants to go with the relationship.  Her feelings run deep and the pain it has caused her haunts her daily.  She feels the person lying to her is basically telling her "You are not worth the truth" and it is my understanding that hurts her more than the what was lied about.

I tried to approach her situation with trying to understand the lies.  When you are lied to the first questions we ask ourselves is why did that person lie?  Did they fear your reaction? Were they trying to hide something they knew you wouldn't approve of? Were they trying to get you to think better about them? Did they know they would get in trouble if they spoke the truth? Were they just trying to hurt you?

The reason for the lie will give you insight into their character. If someone was just trying to get me to think more highly of him or her, I'd be much more inclined to dismiss the lie. But if they were trying to hurt me with the lie, it would be much tougher to trust and dismiss it and this is where she feels she is.  She is caught in the pain of the lie and how what could seem like a simple tale really just indicates that to the person she is not worth the truth and this person does not respect her enough to tell the truth.

I have told my friend it's normal to be hurt and angry about being lied to, especially when it continues to happen over and over again. Being lied to destroys trust and trust can be an impossible thing to recover. I shared with my friend that people need to know she has boundaries. She needs them to understand she can only be pushed so far before the faith she holds will be forever broken.  I advised her that she can not let the other person just  assume that everything they do to her will be tolerated.  There are certain things she can't allow and she needs to make sure the other party knows this. Getting angry or emotional with someone when they lie to you only teaches them so much. And in fact most liars will just accept that this will be apart of the process and know that it might be a rough couple of weeks but the person they lied to will come around like they have in the past.  This becomes a learned behavior and accepted. Thus creating in the liars mind a right of passage to continue.

I don't know the answer for her and as much as I have had it on my mind and in my heart the only thing I can share with her going forward is she has to decided.. when enough is enough.  Sometimes you have to end the friendship or relationship because nothing changes.  She has to be able to accept that the person who lies to her is going to continue to do so and that it's THEIR character flaw and not hers.  I try and tell her that if she really sits and thinks about their past she will be able to see that she is not the only one this person lies to thus proving even more this person will never change. 

I blog about this today in hopes that my friend, who reads my blog, will see the black and white of it all and be able to find peace.  And if there are others out there in her situation as well they will know they are not alone and they are not the only ones suffering.

And to the liars out there too who might be reading this.  Please, stop lying to those people who love and care for you.  You are only hurting those around and there will be a time and day when it will come back and hurt you too.  Maybe you will find yourself alone, maybe you will find yourself without your partner or friends but regardless you're better than the lies you tell.  You can't possibly feel good about yourself all the time knowing these lies are lurking all around you and those in your life look at you and have to ask themselves.....

 "Are they telling the truth THIS time?"

To my friend... I love you, care about you and only want the best for you.  Love yourself as much as I love you and hear me again.... THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU this is a flaw of the person lying to you.  And as much as they claim to love you, which I believe, the love you need to see now is a truthful one.

Here is my song to you today beautiful:



Have a great day everyone!

~Mellie