I am....

If you have been following my blog you know these cards are called the I Am...... Cards.  The idea is to pull a card each day to read a positive affirmation to fill your mind with.  By focusing on positive thoughts, you can change how you feel and the way you think.  It's a simple way to experience life in a new and exciting way and to explore your mind with the thought behind the I am.... card of the day.

When I pulled this card today I laughed out loud as if someone had told me a silly joke.  Then I instantly went to Google to look up the definition for Serene.

https://www.google.com/search?q=DEFINITION+OF+SERENE&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&aq=t&rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official&client=firefox-a&channel=sb

se·rene

səˈrēn/

adjective: serene; comparative adjective: serener; superlative adjective: serenest; adjective: Serene

1.

calm, peaceful, and untroubled; tranquil.

Yep, just as I had thought..... this was and is NOT me!  Let me explain.

I do not mean this in a negative way but, just as described above, serene means to me being calm, peaceful, and tranquil.  I am a VERY high energy, driven and motivated person so being "calm and peaceful" is not really how I would define myself unless.... I am sleeping.  Even THEN, I am restless and constantly moving!!!

As I have looked at this card over and over again on my desk while working this morning, it becomes more and more humorous to me. As I reflect on my daily life, I am constantly pressed for time; pushing to get things done and running around.  Even when working at my desk, I am dialing as fast as I can to get the next person on the phone.  Nothing is really peaceful about my days.

However, I told myself to think outside the box and think about peaceful moments. 

Weekend trips out of town are peaceful to me, and I find myself very calm during them.  I love going to Seattle and staying in a nice hotel with no agenda at all.  Laying by a pool while my kids play with their dad is peaceful and calm for me.  Going on drives and listening to music is very calming for me.  Day trips to anywhere are calming for me... if I do not have the kids with me.  My new found love of hiking can be serene for me.  This weekend I sat and read a book on my deck while I BBQ dinner for my family. THAT was peaceful to me. 

I think as time and life get busy, we tend to always be on the move and never really take moments to ourselves to be peaceful. With this comes the mindset that we "are always busy" or in this case today that I am not a serene person, when in reality I really do have serene moments in my blessed life.  I just forget about them because the overall focus is what needs or should be getting done. 

The acknowledgment of those past serene moments for me not only makes me grateful for them, it makes me excited to have more of them and find ways to incorporate serene moments in my day or at least a few times a week going forward.  Life is short, I forget sometimes to look around and appreciate the beauty of it all.

YES!  I am...... serene.

~Mellie